Downmelt? (

Hello.

So, I think I'm having a meltdown. Nice way to start the blog post isn't it? Well, I'll save you and myself from the complaining and ranting and being utterly unbearable because it seems that that is how all my posts are now. I will try to change that. Instead I will give you a brief explanation/synopsis of my situation right now. Unless you don't want to read it. Yeah.

DO NOT READ THIS IF YOU DON'T WANT TO HERE ME COMPLAIN AND BE ANNOYING:
I may be either in a meltdown or definitely about to be having a meltdown very soon. I feel like nothing is worth anything. I am "burnt out". I am tired... of school, of work, of anything having to do with the future. I wasn't like this before. I was extremely happy. Now I am just TOO TIRED. I don't know WHY I'm taking AP classes or wanting to go to a "good college" anymore. I used to know, but now I don't. I am tired of being in a routine of school, work, school, work, tired, sleep, no sleep, school. I feel it will be like this all life except for after school, the "school"s will change to "work"s. I just don't understand anything and I am so, so, so, so afraid to admit it to anyone. I mean I'm doing fine in school. For now. But I just don't feel like doing any work. I used to love to do it and be happy to be accomplished, but now I don't. I don't even have that many hard classes! It's only been TWO DAYS of school and I already feel like it should be over with. What do I do? D:

Okay, that was so much longer than I intended it to be. My fingers just started typing away. I hope anyone who is actually reading my blog didn't read that particular paragraph. I needed to get it out into the world, but I'm kind of ashamed. Blah.

So other than that, life is fairly good. I think I need to do some kind of incentive for this blog. Like how Hayley G. Hoover does her "senses" thing. You know? Maybe I'll think of something or just copy her. Probably the second one.

Today is Friday and that makes me happy. Unfortunately it is rainy and humid and dark outside. D: I like the rain but now the humidity and how dreary everything feels.

Okay, I'm rambling like always so I will leave you.

Goodbye.
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