Last Day!

Hi there! 

I have a lot I want to say in this post and I hope I remember all of it... I probably won't, but oh well. (:

First of all: Woah. Is it really the last day of BEDA? I can't believe it. This month went by so fast. I didn't even know it was the end of the month until yesterday. Crazycakes. 

I also want to genuinely thank Rebecca for reading these posts. I think you're the only one that reads them, but knowing someone out there reads my daily thoughts and the insight into my mind makes me incredibly happy. Plus, you're really nice and have an awesome blog! :D 

I'm actually almost glad only one person reads my blog. I posted some really embarrassing things on here that I wouldn't want anyone to see. I rant too much and complain all the time. But that's just how my blogs are I guess. 

I'm also incredibly happy I did BEDA. Some days I didn't want to blog, but the majority of the time I was anticipating blogging for the day so that I could get my thoughts out. And usually on those days I didn't want to blog, I actually would blog more than I expected to. It was like an emotional escape for me. I could just spew out all my ridiculous, awkward, weird, mean, sad, insane thoughts without having anyone I know personally irl read. Of course, I do feel kinda meh about some of the things I've posted and I'm ashamed for even a few people reading them, regardless of who they are, but that experience has made me grow. Just putting EVERYTHING out on this blog makes me feel so much better as a person. 

So back to the month going fast (I know I'm jumping around so much). This month was just insane. I never understood how much not only I, but as humans, we go through in a month. If so much goes on in just that short period of time, what about two months? 6 months? A year? Ten years? I could go on forever! It's so crazy how much I experienced, felt, and learned through just this one month. I met new people (whether I liked them or didn't), I experienced SO MANY different feelings and spewed most of them onto this blog, I learned a TON of information. But I'm still experiencing, still feeling, still learning. I'm making new friends all the time, and going through emotions on a daily basis. Things constantly change. For everyone. And the amount that changes in a small amount of time is a lot more than I would have thought. No matter what I go through, I can always feel that life will go on. 

So yeah, anyway. I'm going to keep writing blogs, even if I don't have much of an audience. This blog, this daily writing, has taught me so much more than I would have hoped for, and I don't want to end it. This blog is for me, the one place I can write mindless things and send it off into an oblivion... well not really an oblivion, but you understand what I mean (hopefully). I won't write EVERYDAY most likely, but I will probably write every two days or maybe once a week if it gets to that. Of course, even now, these blogs won't have anything substantial. They most likely won't be interesting or witty or full of ideas. They'll be my mind in a nutshell. What I'm thinking of at the single moment I write the blog. 

So yeah, I guess that's it! I had a wonderful month, despite all my troubles and worries. Blogging has been great. This weekend will be HP weekend for me, so I'll definitely write about that! I'm sure there'll be a blog before that though. 

Love you! 

Goodbye xx